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Hi and Hello IPOMers.... I don't know how to say this. I guess there's no easy way of saying it, so I guess I should just say it and just get it over with. Ok, here goes. I think my enthusiasm for Metallica and their projects is slowly evaporating. :( The mighty Metallica was my first metal band, my first introduction to the genre. I was in constant awe. The amazing talent, the sheer poetry of the lyrics....James Hetfield's facets as both intimidating evil man, and down to earth, kind almost paternal figure. But then Jason left the band, and I Disappear came out (ok, reverse the order) and as the years pass since those things have happened, I feel like I don't know Metallica anymore. :( I didn't like I Disappear except for the lyrics. I felt it was below Metallica's standards. And just too simple for my personal tastes. And Jason.... Jason was always the hungriest of the band, hungry to bring us bone crushing metal, hungry to be with the fans, just hungry and enthusiastic in general. In the first few months after he left, it looked like he was just hungry to do new things, and the Metallica machine was holding him back. So he went with my blessing, albeit a tearful blessing. But now, it's different.... Jason is in a good band, no, a great band. He has an opportunity to feed that hunger once again. But instead of doing that, I see him as bitter, angry, and disillusioned. He has burned his bridges with Metallica, and you don't know how sad that makes me. James...he went through an awful time, and we were here supporting him. I practically love the guy as I would an uncle or a father, and my heart broke when I learned he needed rehab. My real father was an alcoholic too, and it's a destructive disease. I thought he had conquered it till the day I checked IPOM from my friend Lorena's computer, and got the bad news. My heart sunk. It had such a negative impact on me that I had to go back into therapy to deal with my feelings about my dad. But then I see that rehab appears to have worked for James, and he's getting better. Now that made me fucking overjoyed. James seemed genuinely grateful for the support and prayers he got. But I don't know what his relations to the fans are. He seems to have gotten distant. MAYBE I'M WRONG. But that is my perception. I think the thing that really made me go into mourning was the news of the tour. Yes I should be excited about the fact that Metallica are out on the road, and I am. But the tour mates.... yeeeech! Limp Bizkit? Fred Durst is at worst, the anti-Christ, at best, the modern day Nero, fiddling away while Rome, NY burnt down ( yes he wasn't there for the fires, but this is metaphor). Linkin Park is *ok*, but not great. Mudvayne? Bleeech. Deftones.... they're ok. But most of the people I'm hearing would like to see Metallica tour with Anthrax, Queens of the Stoneage, In Flames, Slayer, Nevermore, Iced Earth, Pantera, Testament, Corrosion of Conformity, a reformed Megadeth (in our dreams :( ) and even VOIVOD. I see that even Ross Halfin is fed up with the band. :( That makes me sad, to see Metallica burn bridges with fans and friends for who knows what reason! I don't understand, and maybe I never will. My ex boyfriend tells me it's time to move on. I have in a sense, but I can't completely, and I won't. He says there are better, more fan friendly bands out there right now. That might be true, but they're not Metallica. They just can't compare to Metallica's legacy. I wanted to end this on as positive a note as possible, so I will say that I will probably have a sleepless night on June 9th, as anxious and excited about the album as you will be (hopefully), and hopefully I can scrape enough money to see them in LA. And to get there, maybe I can figure out something with Phil. I still care about James Hetfield as a person. I like Kirk, and I will try to tolerate Lars. Even though I've thought of quitting IPOM because of my disillusionment, but I'm not leaving Phil, Dave, Doug and Matt, nor am I leaving you all. :) I will listen to St. Anger with an open mind. Maybe this will work out for the better, and I will regain some of the ground I lost. I hope so. I'll leave you to my vibe list now. Love, Blessings, and Bruises, Annaleigh |
GOOD STUFF Valentine's Day Video bootlegs My human sexuality class Church and God BAD STUFF Sleepless nights Anemia Anemia Anemia Anemia THINGS I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO My baptism The next human sexuality session St. Anger!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THINGS I'M NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO The possible backlash from this months letter My first exam in human sexuality |