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Ah ha. Hello IPOMers. Another month is upon us. I don't know whether to look forward to it, or what? "Or what?", perhaps. *shrug* As you, the readers already know, I lost my grandma at the very end of January. The funeral was February 6th, and it was excruciating. It was a terrible struggle to keep my composure. I did not really fare well mentally, and still am not. In addition to the grief, I am struggling with spiritual and emotional issues from my abusive past. It really sucks. But there is one good thing in my life. A possible new romance. :) I told myself I would not get myself into another long-distance relationship, but that appears to be just what I'm doing, and quite frankly I don't mind... 'cause I'm in love! He is a friend I met on the original Megadeth.com boards, and we have been bonding and growing ever closer slowly but surely over the last 2 1/2 years. Lately that bonding has been sped up lately, and he has set the goal of visiting me at least once this year, and moving here if we possibly decide to get serious, which is a real possibility. :) I'm really glad this is coming along slowly and naturally... every other relationship I've been in was forced along by one or both sides, and fell apart quickly and brutally. Mutual trust and respect are growing everyday. It's beautiful. I'm really lucky. :) Anyway... March also brings Metallica into my neck of the woods, the Central Valley of California. Please don't look for me at the concert, though. For various reasons, unfortunately, I will not be attending. Chalk it up to transportation, money, and family conflict issues. It's really too bad I won't be going, but hey, that's life! I suppose there's always a next time. I also have a bootleg of the last Fresno concert Metallica did (back in '96), and I can always watch it. In other news, I have this terribly frightening interest and enjoyment of AFI and The Darkness! *gasp* "Well slap my ass and call me a poser!" I'll never live it down! *cringe* Oh well, I'll leave you to my vibe list! (Yay, the radio is playing One right now!) Love and bruises, Annaleigh |
GOOD Being in love! Supportive friends. Metallica in Fresno Dave Mustaine's posts at Megadeth.com Incubus' song "Megalomaniac" (excellent song!) The Passion of the Christ (can't bring myself to see it yet, though) BAD Dealing with grief Dealing with memories of abuse Hurting too much to pray Hurting too much to really live Constantly dry mouth LiveJournal being a pain in the ASS. Can't go to Fresno for Metallica. |