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Helloooooo IPOMers, How is your month going? Mine is so so. It started out real neat, I was writing, volunteering, going to church, and working on myself in therapy. But then summer school started, and I haven't had the time, or will for much else. I'm depressed, you could definetly say. My hair is tangled, I oversleep, I had a nasty panic attack in the shower yesterday morning forcing me to skip philosophy class on an important day, and I'm missing a lot of church. :( On top of that, I was stood up for a date... The guy evidently totally forgot or totally ignored that he asked me out, and then went out to dinner with another woman! :-O I was feeling really rejected and depressed. But I'm sure I'll be ok. I'm already regaining my "Fuck you." attitude, and starting to concentrate on other things like getting better, catching up on my philosophy notes, and maybe maybe maybe maybe making my move on a catch in the philosophy class. He's very intelligent, has long brown hair, and likes Emperor. (He also sounds like an atheiet, but that's another story for another time). I'm sure you IPOMers, my sweet little sugarplums all approve. :) I'm looking forward to 4th of July. That's something worth hanging on for. But enough about me, I want to talk about St. Anger, and about James. I've only listened to half of St. Anger, and I've had the CD since the 9th. Why? I'm not totally sure. I only know I didn't like what I heard so far, and I got terribly sick in the middle of the first listen so I stopped listening. I will have to take 5 and just lay down and listen to the album a couple of times before I judge. I do like Some Kinda Monster and St. Anger so far. Maybe 2/5 isn't so bad for what my expectations were before they hype started. Humpf, we shall see. I probably will like it, as my severely Metallica detracting ex bf, happens to like it except for the snare drum. Murphy's Law of John & Annaleigh's Metallica Fan hood suggests that if he likes it a little, I should like it a whole lot. Now to discuss James. I'm really really impressed by that man. He's shown a real maturity, and a real insight now into who he is, who he was, who he will be, and what Metallica is, was, and will be. I have a new respect for him finally seeing the full picture of what he suffered growing up. Those were some mighty traumatic situations he found himself in, no wonder why he's had the alcohol and anger issues he's had. So kudos to him for seeing it, and being willing to do work on himself. He seems stronger, happier, and connected on a spiritual plane. Something I noticed is, James' recent tattoo... a cross. A pretty one, right side up. I wonder, has James become a Christian? If he has, congrats, he's found something to help him a long his journey. Jesus is a faithful friend, James. :) Ok, now that I have pre-menstrual pains, and philosophy notes to take, I'm just going to close this letter and leave you to my vibe list. Ciao, Annaleigh |
GOOD STUFF James' recovery Philosophy class James from Philosophy class. Strawberry milkshakes LiveJournal & my precious LiveJournal friends BAD STUFF No time for fun, church, or volunteer work. I'm exhausted. I'm feeling rejected. Lack of self care. 10th Father's Day w/o my dad, and 4th w/o my grandpa. Pre-menstrual pains. Trying to catch up in philosophy. |